Look where you want to go

Look where you want to go of xo__ox on November 25, 2009 at 08:58 PM |

Green means go.
Yellow means slow.
Some days I just want to run the red light.

Just me and the road.


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My downfall starts -> here <-

My downfall starts -> here <- of xo__ox on November 25, 2009 at 09:10 AM |

And I don't want to pick myself back up this time around.


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Smackwater Jack he bought a shot-gun...

Smackwater Jack he bought a shot-gun... of aluminium on November 24, 2009 at 03:43 AM |

I'm a mess at the moment.  I am overly-emotional (read: hormonal) teary, tired... my eyes are fixed firmly on the school holidays. Auto-pilot all the way. I just sobbed through the "Packed to the Rafters" final, panicked and cried when E wouldn't go to bed tonight, felt awful for getting upset over that... *sigh* read at your own risk.  (long ramble about work, liberal viewpoints and holding my tongue)

 


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out of sight, out of mind

out of sight, out of mind of xo__ox on November 22, 2009 at 06:35 PM |

Look into my eyes
and tell me
that everything I see is just a lie.

music::Ryan - Proud of My Girl

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bleh

bleh of Ltypeslove on November 22, 2009 at 03:40 PM |

and so i was stalking people on facebook when i decided to check out on my friend's pictures

 

 

he was happy.

i was glad. really glad.

and then i thought of something

"imagine if i was in her shoes."

 

then again i told myself, I WAS HAPPY AND CONTENT.
After all it was me whose at fault, for the most part anyhows.


Then I looked at another person's facebook.
and he's back with his old girlfriend. Then again flashbacked the days he used to crash at my house around 1 am to vent over everything, every anger, frustration, and even cold statements he could think of. I used to not even approve of whatever he's telling me. Now, he would simply talk about how he's succeeding in life (both academically and emotionally)

Funny, theyre all moving on life. i just thought it was a big relief, for all of us. i hope. Then I again question myself, when he's slowly moving, and the other he is improving, where in the world am i heading to?
I miss them though, but as the cliche goes..

we just have to move on life.


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and you said...

and you said... of attribbidda on November 22, 2009 at 06:30 AM |

After all that's said and done...

You finally said: "Are you still mad at me?"

I said: " I'm not really mad at you, I just can't be."

You said: "Can we be friends again?"

I said: "Sure. "

Then you said: "I can feel our friendship will be better. I'm just not ready, yet."

 

~ F*KC! I hate myself... so much. For feeling this way towards you, for even fantasizing about that flirty "I'm just not ready, yet" line you threw at my face, for thinking that one day, you'll wake up and realize that the girl that you're looking for is me. I soo effin' hate myself for this, and yet, I don't understand why I keep on logging onto FB and hoping against all hope that you'd be online so we can talk.

I need a hug. *wipes tears*

emotion::confused
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88 Degrees!

88 Degrees! of aluminium on November 22, 2009 at 03:14 AM |

I think that instead of doing my school work (You can shove it up your arse) that I should be watching the Black Books episode where Manny watches the thermometre because he is worried the temp is going to get up to 88°F. It's comedy gold! and would make anyone feel better about a sticky summer's day. Meanwhile, even more funny is that 88°F is only 31°C. Oh the British and their pussy weather. Makes you wonder how they ever managed to colonise this place!

I've been watching the temps all day. Pen gave Mark a digital mini-weather station for his 30th and we had that set up, plus my Vista widget and Google weather. It's 10pm and it has only just started to drop. We are now down to 28°C. Significantly less dreadful than 40°C but still not cool enough for me to switch my a/c off.

 


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Summer Days

Summer Days of aluminium on November 22, 2009 at 12:08 AM |

Temps around 40°C today, yesterday, and the day before. Needless to say, it has been hot.  Hot enough for watermelon and refrigerated grapes for lunch. Witled leaves on our Navelina. We all feel wilted. The beagles have dug holes beneath shrubs under the verandah - big, beagle-shaped holes. E demolished a milk ice block after dinner tonight in no time at all. It feels like it is going to be a long, hot summer.

I'm not a fan of the heat but I do enjoy some summer things: mangoes, watermelon, summer fruits, frozen margaritas, lazy nights on the verandah, swimming, reading, Christmas, not going to work   

In that spirit, we took E to the beach this afternoon after we went and saw my friend Kathryn's new baby Sophie (she's so cute and chubby!!). The water felt so icy after being in such thick heat. E loved it, and Mark and I loved playing with her in it. I love the feel of the salt water - it is better than chloric pool water, or salted pool water - true, beachy salt water is thick and gloriously cool.

It was lovely to feel refreshed for a moment. And in that vein, I'm off to sit outside (it is down to 36, at 7:30pm) and drink iced lemon cordial, till I feel sufficiently warm enough to return to the air conditioning.

 


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